My mother has managed to rope me into watching the first Sex and the City movie, and watching it has made me realize something. I'm not made for romance writing. My style, and the way I work my characters isn't really the style the people look for in a romance.
That's not to say I'm going to give up on Kitty Malone. Far from it. I just need to reevaluate how I market it. I don't think I can keep marketing it as a modern-day romance novel because it's really not. Romance has a formula, and Kitty Malone doesn't follow it. I don't introduce the hero and heroine in the first few chapters, I don't introduce the conflict, and I don't introduce conflict int he middle of the novel that drives them apart for a few chapters before they get back together. I don't do drama very well either. I do psychological turmoil well, and family insanity well (what does that say about me, I wonder), but not the clear-cut drama that Sex and the City and other romance novels do so well. Relationship drama, especially like that of estranged marriages getting back together, loves of lives split apart by misunderstandings and then getting back together, I just don't do well. I don't know why. I've read a lot of romances, and I used to write them a lot back in my FanFiction days. But when it comes to writing them for a large audience, I stumble and fall into pits.
Maisey Yates is one of my newest favorite romance novelists. I read her novel The Inherited Bride and absolutely loved it. Her mastery of the subtleties of relationships is amazing to read, and her characters are amazing in their complexities, their interactions, and their growing love for one another. And her plots are exotic enough to whet fantasy without being too...trite or forced. She's just an amazing author and hilariously funny. I wish I had the talent to write romances like her, to write drama like she does.
But you know what? It's quite all right. Maybe I'm not meant to be romance novelist, and maybe it's not the way I'll get my name out in the writing world, but it's fun to write and I do enjoy it when I write it. I have other projects that I'm working on, and maybe one of those will fit me better. Maybe the WIP novel will propel me into the bestseller's list. But it's not all about that. It's about having fun writing and enjoying it (almost) every step of the way. I enjoy writing Kitty Malone, and I will keep at it. But I think it's time to let go of the notion that I'm a romance writer. I'm something else. Eventually I'll figure it out.