Well hello everyone! Remember me? Nah, probably not. Or if you do, you know me as that jerk who abandoned everyone for three months without warning.
In my defense - which is nothing more than an excuse, really - I had a rough three months. A lot of things happened. A lot of things didn't happen. I can't decide which is worse.
It felt like I fell into a ditch, and no matter how hard I tried to scramble out of it, the edges kept crumbling and I would fall deeper into the mud. After a while I gave up. Why bother when there's nothing left I can do?
I let a lot of opportunities slide through my fingers because of my depression. I was supposed to do a guest post at Michelle Fayard's blog yesterday, an author interview, but because I stopped checking my emails and stopped responding to the ones I did read, I lost the spot. I didn't get the job I wanted because I didn't hand in my application. I stopped writing because I hated everything I did.
I was functioning and I wasn't at the same time. I didn't enjoy anything. I went through the motions of living, but underneath that veneer, I was in pieces. I would stay up late a lot of nights and play Pokemon (I'm a child at heart) on my DS until I passed out in my papasan chair. Half the time I wouldn't even bother even getting into bed. I slept in that poor papasan chair. I sulked.
It was bad. I needed change but couldn't be bothered to find it.
I'm not 100 percent right now either, but I wanted to try because I miss all of you and I miss writing and I miss writing this blog. I miss reading all of your blog posts and commenting and finding out all about your writing and your lives and what's up with all of you. I miss my friends.
So I have a present for you guys because I want to try and make up for disappearing and because I want to give you all a present since it's Christmas!
What is this present, you ask? Well, it's simple. Leave a comment here, and I will send you a PDF file of every Kitty Malone story I've written, including the newest one: Manhattan Christmas Lights, going up for sale tonight.
Sound good? (:
I'll post more soon!