Wednesday, December 28, 2011

On Realizations

My mother has managed to rope me into watching the first Sex and the City movie, and watching it has made me realize something.  I'm not made for romance writing.  My style, and the way I work my characters isn't really the style the people look for in a romance.

That's not to say I'm going to give up on Kitty Malone.  Far from it.  I just need to reevaluate how I market it.  I don't think I can keep marketing it as a modern-day romance novel because it's really not.  Romance has a formula, and Kitty Malone doesn't follow it.  I don't introduce the hero and heroine in the first few chapters, I don't introduce the conflict, and I don't introduce conflict int he middle of the novel that drives them apart for a few chapters before they get back together.  I don't do drama very well either.  I do psychological turmoil well, and family insanity well (what does that say about me, I wonder), but not the clear-cut drama that Sex and the City and other romance novels do so well.  Relationship drama, especially like that of estranged marriages getting back together, loves of lives split apart by misunderstandings and then getting back together, I just don't do well.  I don't know why.  I've read a lot of romances, and I used to write them a lot back in my FanFiction days.  But when it comes to writing them for a large audience, I stumble and fall into pits.

Maisey Yates is one of my newest favorite romance novelists.  I read her novel The Inherited Bride and absolutely loved it.  Her mastery of the subtleties of relationships is amazing to read, and her characters are amazing in their complexities, their interactions, and their growing love for one another.  And her plots are exotic enough to whet fantasy without being too...trite or forced.  She's just an amazing author and hilariously funny.  I wish I had the talent to write romances like her, to write drama like she does.

But you know what?  It's quite all right.  Maybe I'm not meant to be romance novelist, and maybe it's not the way I'll get my name out in the writing world, but it's fun to write and I do enjoy it when I write it.  I have other projects that I'm working on, and maybe one of those will fit me better.  Maybe the WIP novel will propel me into the bestseller's list.  But it's not all about that.  It's about having fun writing and enjoying it (almost) every step of the way.  I enjoy writing Kitty Malone, and I will keep at it.  But I think it's time to let go of the notion that I'm a romance writer.  I'm something else.  Eventually I'll figure it out.


Saturday, December 24, 2011

Merry Christmas/Happy Holidays

I hope everyone is enjoying his/her Christmas Eve or your December 24th if you don't celebrate Christmas.  Over at the Cassidy household we've been noming on some lovely home-made cavatelli and broccoli with chicken and some home-made butter/sugar cookies, both courtesy of my wonderful mother.  Dad sat around and watched the Giants win against Jets (yes!), and I tried to write, gave up, and read some more of Before the Pyramids.  It's an interesting book that challenges a lot of the assumptions in the archaeological field but doesn't fall prey to blaming everything on ancient aliens.  I'll write more about it when I finish it.

Other is celebrating with his own family, but we've been texting each other all day, so it's not too bad.  We actually haven't spent any Christmases together since we've been in a relationship, but hopefully that will change soon.  We might even spend New Year's together!

Speaking of, hopefully I will have part 2 of Manhattan Christmas Lights up and running for all of you to enjoy.  And speaking of Kitty Malone, I have good news of a sort.  If you have a Kindle, and you are a Kindle Premium member, you can now borrow the Kitty Malone series for free.  Exciting, right?  I know I don't stand much of a change against the better promoted books in the Lending Library, but I can still promote Kitty Malone for free for five days while it's in the Library, and hopefully someone will borrow it and like it.  And as long as someone likes it, I'm happy.

My dog is staring at me with the tip of his tongue hanging out of his mouth.  I think he wants me to pet him now.  I think I will.

Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, and Happy Hanukkah everyone!

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Excuses, Stories, and Christmas Freebies

Well hello everyone!  Remember me?  Nah, probably not.  Or if you do, you know me as that jerk who abandoned everyone for three months without warning.

In my defense - which is nothing more than an excuse, really - I had a rough three months.  A lot of things happened.  A lot of things didn't happen.  I can't decide which is worse.

It felt like I fell into a ditch, and no matter how hard I tried to scramble out of it, the edges kept crumbling and I would fall deeper into the mud.  After a while I gave up.  Why bother when there's nothing left I can do?

I let a lot of opportunities slide through my fingers because of my depression.  I was supposed to do a guest post at Michelle Fayard's blog yesterday, an author interview, but because I stopped checking my emails and stopped responding to the ones I did read, I lost the spot.  I didn't get the job I wanted because I didn't hand in my application.  I stopped writing because I hated everything I did.

I was functioning and I wasn't at the same time.  I didn't enjoy anything.  I went through the motions of living, but underneath that veneer, I was in pieces.  I would stay up late a lot of nights and play Pokemon (I'm a child at heart) on my DS until I passed out in my papasan chair.  Half the time I wouldn't even bother even getting into bed.  I slept in that poor papasan chair.  I sulked.

It was bad.  I needed change but couldn't be bothered to find it.

I'm not 100 percent right now either, but I wanted to try because I miss all of you and I miss writing and I miss writing this blog.  I miss reading all of your blog posts and commenting and finding out all about your writing and your lives and what's up with all of you.  I miss my friends.

So I have a present for you guys because I want to try and make up for disappearing and because I want to give you all a present since it's Christmas!

What is this present, you ask?  Well, it's simple.  Leave a comment here, and I will send you a PDF file of every Kitty Malone story I've written, including the newest one: Manhattan Christmas Lights, going up for sale tonight.

Sound good? (:

I'll post more soon!